i finally stepped into ang mo kio today, after so long. have been wanting to go there with chin ever since i came back from perth but cos it's simply too far away from my house, so i have been putting it aside.

didn't go there with chin today though so no steamboat. instead, went to dal's house. like finally all 3 of us have been to each other's house. the reason as to why i have to travel so far and go her house is because of the fop. things seemed a little messy and we are trying to set things straight as members of the logistics team. got a little pissed off halfway, not with the 2 of them, with other people but got over it easily. i wonder if those letters have been sent out and i'm praying hard that at least one reply then our efforst won't go to waste.

mum:"told u to study dentistry then. they earn big bucks!"

dentists in singapore really earn big bucks. either that or those relatively cheap ones have to q very long. some so long until appointment all fully booked until december! gosh. i can't believe it.

though this is not the start of a new year, but i have a number of resolutions tt i'm intending to keep in the coming new year in school. i hope these are not too high expectations yet again but i resolve to try hard because i noticed, i haven't been trying hard enough and for those who wonder, i'm NOT talking about my studies.

Brian Mcfadden & Delta Goodrem - Almost Here

did i hear you right
cause i thought you said
let's think it over

you have been my life
and i never planned
growing old without you

shadows bleeding through the light
where a love once shined so bright
came without a reason
don't let go on us tonight
love's not always black and white
haven't i always loved you?

but when i need you
you're almost here
and i know that's not enough
but when im with you
im close to tears
cause you're only almost here

i would change the world
if i had a chance
oh won't you let me
treat me like a child
throw your arms around me
please protect me

bruised and battered by your words
dazed and shattered how it hurts
havent i always loved you

but when i need you
you're almost here
and i know that's not enough
but when im with you
im close to tears
cause you're only almost here

bruised and battered by your words
dazed and shattered now it hurts
havent i always loved you

but when i need you, you're almost here
well i never knew how far behind i'd left you
and when i hold you, you're almost here
well im sorry that i took our love for granted
now im with you, im close to tears
cause i know im almost here
only almost here

the long-awaited rain brings the long-awaited tears. tears i didn't even know exist. expectations are so high and so far. when i tell myself that it's ok not to pursue so hard for expectations and that some things are just not within my grasp, am i just consoling myself?

through this trip, i learnt alot about myself. the person that i thought i had become, or the person that i believed i already was didn't exist. i still have a long way to go. when i came back, my confidence was totally ripped away from me when i gradually realise false confidence caused these expecations seem to be so near and reachable but in fact, due to "parallex error", i'm still far from those expectations.

i always thought by letting myself slow down and take a break is wrong. i should always be wary and one the move. this makes me so tired. when i took a nice break from the world, i realise things could be so beautiful and yet, i didn't realise. beauty is not what i own but something i hope i can have within my grasp. i will work hard to see the beauty 'cos it doesn't come easy.

i don't want to pursue non-stop, it's tiring. maybe, i should look back and see what exactly have i missed out when i go on my pursue. i might have dropped or neglect beautiful things around me to go on my wild pursue when the most basic thing tt one needs is actually the most beautiful of all.

no matter what, i've learnt new things again. and like i always say, knowledge is something so vast and wide. learning new things about yourself and others can be quite enjoyable in a way too. to be able to learn new things every single day may turn out to be a blessing after all.

can i take a small break?
can i choose not to live up to those expectations?
they're taking all the air i tried so hard to suck in.

even if i'm no longer a princess, will i be looked down upon?
i'm not the person you thought i am
you don't know me.

give me a small break, please. i need it so badly

Your Birthdate: August 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

just updated the pictures i took in perth --> click here

my 3 darlings came to visit me at my home. sweets 

i'm back! actually, i was back 2 days ago at 8 plus at night. i miss sinagpore, i miss my bed, i miss all my dearies. in fact, got a little homesick over there. hee. guess, there's still a long way to go when it comes to independence, i actually missed being taken care of. anyway, i'm finally back!

the trip was lovely. the highlight was the farmstay. i gave many of my first-times there. the weather's there very good!! not like sinagpore, so hot and humid. i find myself wanting to bathe every 3 hours. so sticky. ewww. i'm back only for two days and already, i can't stand the weather.

chin, boon and angel came by my house yesterday. it's really rare and sweet of them. i love them to bits!

anyway, thanks my darling amelia for recording show for me. though it wasn't perfect, but i'm grateful. really am. mahjong mahjong, i can't wait!! life is great and i'm glad i'm alive! =)

just finish doing my mask. it was hilarious. i can't talk with mask on then i needed to tell my mum stuff, was playing charade with her.. damn funny lah. i must say, she's pretty good at guessing or maybe, on the other hand, i'm good at acting it out.. =)

never knew packing could be such a chore but it really is. but at least, i'm 3/4 packed. tonight's going to be an early night for me. gotta wake up early tmr.

but before i go to bed, i must blog about today. angel say i might not blog but no way mans, it's such a good day for me too! went out with my dearies today, amelia and angel and boy, could the 3 of us click so well. surprisingly, we had lotsa things to talk about and it seemed like all 3 of us shared a common history. i had real fun. i'm too lazy to type the details, if want details, can go read angel's blog.. it's really detailed.

this week has been a very good one for me. met up with many people. those i miss and wanna see badly. everything feels good. and i'm very happy. thanks to those who met up with me, you've made my week pass so well.

thanks xm for ur mp3. will be reminded of u during the whole trip.. thanks alot alot. and thanks amelia for helping me record the show. u promised!! our friendship's at stake, i love u guys! thanks alot.

i'll miss all of u guys. miss me too, k! if u guys are feeling rich, can call me or drop me a message. i'll be bringing my phone. must take care of urself while i'm away and u guys will always be on my mind. i'll contact u all when i get back. tata~ i'll take care of myself too.. =) *hugs*

areosmith-- i don't wanna miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

(Chorus)
I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever

And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this, I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time

my cousin's whining for someone to send her off this saturday. i want also! but it's a morning flight and it's a damn early one. flight's at 9 plus, which means we have to get there by 8 plus at least? hmmm... so i can forget about asking anyone to send me off.

many things screw up when it comes to this trip. first it was the cancel of it all, and now, there are other problems, though minor, as well. don't worry, would take lotsa care and i would have to take care of my cousin too! no matter wad, i'm still 4 months older than her, k! ahaha, haven't got down to serious packing yet. have been dragging it on and on. think i'll have to pack on thursday night after i get back from meeting my girlfriend! yay, finally get to meet her. miss tt boon girl soo much.

will i be missed during the one week i'm gone?? *pouts*

2 more days to perth!

i'm finally sick of solitaire, after so long. yay, i'm back to normal. i know everyone thought i was rather wierd to fall in love with solitaire, but i'm normal now. =)

i'm having a relatively hard time packing. just can't decide wad to bring. i feel like just putting in half my wadrobe but that would be too much. but i dun want to overpack or on the other hand, under pack as well. this is where a list would come in handy and being as lazy as i m, just can't bring myself to write one.

thanks all my friends for asking me out or agreeing to go out with me. i thought no one would want to jian xing for me... thank you thank you. i'm happy! =) and i would stay happy. oh and before i forgot, though i'm sure she won't see this but happy 44th monthsary anyway!

5 more days to perth!

a nice weekend spent, but very lack of sleep.

met up with dz on sat. i counted and it's been a year or more since we go out together. so so long. we catch up, laughed and she claims i'm ambitious! i'm not, k! went coffee club and tcc. had lotsa caffeine yet when i wanted to watch a midnight show with my cousin, my body and mind tells me that i need the bed. yes, i'm that tired. and i wonder why but i really want to watch guess who!!

spent the whole sunday with my mum. went for facial and foot rub. feels damn good. there were like 3 people serving me? ahaha, i felt like a princess and even the aunties said i should feel like one. *grins*

my dad just came back from shanghai and we bought lotsa pearls back! ahaha, he even bought pearl powder. in the past, pearl powder is only meant for ge ge (ancient china princess). and everytime he go china, he would not fail to buy me watches. i really appreciate it alot but his taste is just hmmm, rather different from mine? so ya... i'll gladly accept it and try to wear on some occasions, not all. but i try.. hee.

i'm leaving this saturday already. anyone want to help me jian4 xing2. eve doesn't know this word, i had to explain very very long to her... ahahaha. and ar, i'm craving for mah jong, i really am!!!

met chin today after her exams. we were supposed to meet in town to catch a movie and do some shopping but that silly girl called me and say meet at tiong bahru instead because she had to do her name tag. it was supposed to be done like within half an hour or less but because both of us got lost in tiong bahru, it took an hour! and the worst part of it all was that it was raining very heavily. we were like walking rounds and rounds in tiong bahru and me being me, act smart, wanted to take short cut and in the end, we had to walk extra rounds. gosh, with an empty stomach and the rain pouring, i almost fainted on the street!

after that, went town to catch a movie, shopped a while and before we know it, it's time to go home to watch tv. can't help it, 2 tv addicts. it's a chicken day for me today. ate chicken for both lunch and dinner... i'm gonna get some vitamin c into my system. feel that my body system is not as strong as it used to be, very easily get flu and fall sick...

anyway, eve!! is the message in your blog for me?

me and chin on the train after a long tiring hour at tiong bahru 

i woke up early this morning to learn about the sad life of beethoven. but, the sad part is that i have to wake up early for my organ lesson. it totally slip off my mind last night that i have lesson today, otherwise, i would have slept early last night. oh wells.

since i've learnt some interesting facts this morning, shall share it with u guys. beethoven was born into a family where his father is a spendthrift and a drunkard. his mother i think is the sickly type one. den he got 2 younger brothers so he have to take care of them. when his father is drunk, temper will be bad and will tend to hit him. when he was in his twenties, he was struck partially deaf by his father. now think of it this way, a guy born into this kinda family and hit deaf by your own father, yet emerged as a musician. how hard life must be for him. history stated that he was a musician with a very bad temper. his temper, his angust to this world can be heard through his music. how fascinating that through music, one can actually learn so much about the composer's attitude and life. after exams, i've to concentrate on my theory exam already. but i'm not dreading it. in fact, i'm looking forward to learning the history of those composers and their music though it can get quite boring, with the different music periods in history.

once in a while like this, i find myself drawn into music. maybe tt's why my teacher sae i'm actually quite talented in it though i take up music not because of my passion for it, but rather an obligation. it's not an obligation that i take willingly. it's one where i will fulfill it even though i dun like it much and everyone who knows me should know that if i dun like something, i go all out to show it but ya, it's a promise to finish my music diploma and i will work hard.

talked to cy last night. it's been such a long time. know him for 5 years already yet we haven't met. started some issues on different views about guys and girls. guys can actually go play around so as long as they only have the one and only girl in their heart? their attitude is so as long as i love you, i can fool around? why is that when u have someone already, and u noe tt she's the one, u're still on a look out? issit just human nature not to be contented or just guys being guys? hmmm... on the other hand, there are also guys that go all out for the girls they like. giving in their all. i know of this friend who just broke up with his gf, cos he was too nice. or maybe simply the girl just dun love him as much as he does. maybe girls just dun like nice guys? but i think it's not that, all of us should look for someone to give us as much as we give. even if the degree of giving differs, it shouldn't be alot. like this, den both parties can be happy. that person might not be the one u love most but is the one who's gg to settle down with u. and as a person grow older, passion is no longer a factor.

anyway, i've got to study hard for econs. really dun like econs. i only like the teacher. lolx. i've got many things to do after exams, in preparation for perth. =)

it's been so long since i last paint the town red. i miss my shopping, my coffee outings, my late night movie with my cousin, i miss everyone out there that i haven't met in some time! and i'm deprived of all of you. lolx.

have been somewhat busy rotting at home, well it was supposed to be studying at home but somehow, i'm just not a consistent person to study. tv is a number one big distraction, den it's my computer. u will be surprised but i'm so hooked onto solitaire. and tt's why computers are so attractive nowadays. and lastly, it's the food. my fridge is filled with food to distract me every now and then. once in so blue a moon then my fridge would be stocked up.. ahaha.. i'm not complaining but this is crazy. i'm like getting fatter. you guys would surely disagree with me but it's a fact! i'm the one looking at the mirror when i bathe so u guys can't argue this point.

tmr's accounts paper. it kinda freaked me out. dun have the usual confidence i have. dunno why. just feel very uncertain. about everything, in fact.

it's amazing how much tv could cheer me up, but at the same time, get me highly addicted to it. so should i love or hate it more? it's so annoying, when i'm preparing for my exams, all the nice shows start. one hr after another, darn it!

i'm already going to prepare writing on my whiteboard, monday to friday all the shows that can't be missed, maybe i wun be so bored during the holidays after all. stayed at home, tv-ing all the way, save money too. weekends are not included because i definitely must go out!

today's paper sux. i dun even want to elaborate but okok, there's nothing i can say to console someone who either pons lectures or sleep through it. tutorial also dun wanna do properly.. but all these is going to change! if i get to pass all modules, i promise i would be a good student from year 2 onwards. god, please help me? i promise, i promise... =)

exams are such a dread. when would it be over? i want to enjoy without guilt.

You should be dating a Leo.
23 July - 22 August
This mate is honest and loyal, with a sunny
disposition. Though this lion has the tendency
to be arrogant, sulky or smug, he/she is
unrestrained in bed.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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you came after a long time and brought me much pain. i don't know if i should be glad you came. you made me lose all my concentration i should have to study. it's so painful...

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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my mum's evil. one can after another of pringles storing at my place. bars and bars of chocolates. basically, alot of snacks for me to study with and gosh, i can feel the fats in me. i can't afford to stay at home anymore because by doing so, i'll just grow fatter and fatter and i'll turn into a pig even before i go perth.

didn't study at all today. guilt. i'm simply too lazy. allowing myself to slip into relax mode once mob is finished. looks like tonight is going to be a tough night. i can't sleep le. got to at least do some mugging, like starting on my econs.

sometimes i wonder, what's wrong with humans. never satisfied with wad they have but constantly looking for newer advertures and challenges. they rather go after something so difficult to lay their hands on than make do with wad they have around them. wierd.

lots of flashbacks today. i guessed it has to do with the fact that at 4am last night, i came across this little sketchbook that was given to me by my dearest one and only darling gf. lots of memories especially about xcyflawx (did i get it right?). and also the fact that she called me today and we chatted alot. about present, about past. =) i know i was supposed to be studying but oh well, a little digression won't hurt.

remember all the little fairy tales we wrote? it started off with xinying's one, then it was chinfang's and then boon wrote one for me too. hilarious and crappy stuff but nonetheless, a very important part of all our memories. all of us dreamed of having a prince charming, sweeping us off our feet. everyone wants different type of guys and no one would ever forget tt my gf actually wants guys with lots muscles like the rock. basically, in those days, we dreamt of perfect relationship, perfect guy, perfect wedding. and ya, like i said, it's only a dream and will always be.

guess by now, everyone should experience or come across due to people around us that dreams ultimately are not reality. how many of us can get a prince charming and have a perfect relationship and get married to the one we loved the most? the probability (yes, i've been doing stats) is so small. so many of us out there wants to be love and if that's the case, who's going to love those that wants to be loved. there got to be give and take. no relationship is flawless. we must learn to accept those flaws and make the best out of it. but this can only be done with 2 persons. it takes two hands to clap you see. so what if one party wants to accept but the other party doesn't, it still comes back to nothing. even if u want to give so much, no one wants to take it, end up, u'll get hurt even more. is it worth it? love makes us behave like fools. all of us and i'm not an exception. but it's the degree of our stupidity. are we hopelessly stupid and refuse to walk towards the light when it's just right in front of us? or we can be a little silly, stumbling and falling but ultimately, walking out of this darkness. it's all in the mind, and it's all up to us.

so all my girlfriends out there, be it when it comes to relationships or other adversities, stay strong! when i'm down, i always remind myself tt i'm not alone. and because we are all friends, in fact very good friends and with me around, i ensure u that you are definitely not alone. dun sae you've given up the world because tt means u've given me up.. and i'll be =( but i'm always here, at the entrance of this dark passage, be it long and tiring or whatsoever, waiting to give u a hug and tell u, it's over and i'm still here, i've never given u up. i love u guys, i really do. u guys made my life seems so beautiful, i thank god every now and then about it, and i want u guys to see it the way i do. cry when u have to, i'll lend u a shoulder but remember behind every storm, there's always rainbow. i'm not trying to be a optimist here but i really care about all of u guys' happiness from the bottom of my heart.

=) ya, back to my studies. it's a long digression.

here are a few equations i formed today:

chocolates + potato chips = fat
proper meal + snacks = fat (squared)
mugging + snacks = exams

thus, exams = turning into a fat pig! (plus i had 2 proper meals = fat! (cubed)

i just couldn't stop eating today, which is very bad. anyway, i have alot of problems interpreting answers for the spss question of stats. any help?? eve, i would love to help you, but u not using casio calculator.

today marks the beginning of this beautiful weekend i'm going to have ahead. no late outings though because have to mug but nonetheless, leona is a happy girl. everyone seems to be having no motivation to study. it's not tt i have tons of it but what i really lack of energy. still feeling a little sick, with the flu and sore throat. have to be on medication. and like study must have a box of tissue beside me. hee.

i know this might be no big deal to many households out there but it really makes me happy. i have food at home. food like tons of snacks and my mum actually cook lunch and dinner for me before she left for work. with food at home, i have no worries that i would go hungry. it feels really good to serach for food knowing there's going to be alot rather than searching for food in an empty kitchen. =)

i'm going to recover asap. have to. don't want to bring flu bugs over to perth and same to u too, cousin. recover soon! =) i'm in love with solitaire, can't seem to stop playing. and ya, amelia, guess we fantasied too much last night. i mean if we are practical enough, so what if anything happened, it's not in our boundary to do anything. there's no way our paths and her path would cross. no way... ahahha, time to wake up and go study!! ahahha

so everyone, jia you and study hard! =) i shall continue with my countdown:

21 more days to perth!
47 more days to xm going korea

sniffing away. head's splitting and throat's hurting. burning sensation all over. think i'm falling sick?

is it just me or are humans the weakest when they fall ill? the feeling of wanting someone to take care of me is so strong. all these raw emotions that i've kept well-hidden are chewing at me, gnawing their way up onto the surface. but i've learnt my lesson, not to give in to their temptation and allow them up on the surface. they're meant to stay down there always. it's only then i can be in control. i know what's best for me.

worries, frustrations and anxiety are threatening to fully control my brain. fighting so bad a war that this big head of mine couldn't take it. i hate it most when i am not in control of situations.

why is that i have to be stuck in the middle of the both of u. i hate to admit it, but i might not be impartial when it comes to this. and what's worse, when i want peace and quiet, you refuse to give it to me. you're driving me to somewhere you and i don't want things to be. please. doesn't mean that you don't like her, biased against her, i got to share your thoughts. come one, who knoes her better than i do. you dont' know anything about her so stop judging her. you're showinf how immature you are and admit it, u're just jealous. but this is basic courtesy i show. you don't even have baisc courtesy? what's ur level of maturity? 3 yeras old? you're making me mad. really mad.

here it comes again. the feeling of isolation. am i just a clown or someone who entertains. must i bring myself down to that. i feel so sick. this is tough but it's not gonna get me down. try harder. i'm not the same girl who refuses medication when she's sick anymore. i'm going all out to make myself feel better because if i don't cherish myself, no one esle will. who, but myself, will care for me if i don't. sad to say, humans are selfish and i've seen it with my own eyes. how ugly the sight but if tt's not the case, down history, there won't even be war already.

okie. today's just a bad bad day. ignore me, please. just had to get things out.

just uploaded pictures.. -->

LEO WOMAN
She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally tall orrather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks shewalk like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there isno one around her.

She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confidentof what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozenfor her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not buy cloths that do notreflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange clothes and accessories. Being different is what she loves.

If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selectiveabout people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet she is not lettingpeople get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments,but not too much.

She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader.She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect toughcompetition.

She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge herconfident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like aninnocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums withher ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy. She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic.She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills.

She is a sport type and love sports. If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bucks, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand,but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be surprised if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress. If you do not have lots of money, be creative andmake your own gift for her. It's unique quality and times spending making itfor her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

me: it's like damn true. esp. the part on money...

leona is a very happy girl though she's not out on a saturday night. actually, come to think of it, it's pretty easy to catch me on a saturday night. with my usual activity, i'm most probably in those areas only except maybe the last saturday of the week because cousin and i are too broke and so we would rot at home, and await the arrival of next saturday... like today.. nonetheless, i'm very happy today! =)

mum and i went on a big shopping spree. and i mean big! first, we went sim lim to look for my digital camera. after much walking around, we finally stop at a shop and bought my camera! my big cow's wife, which is my mum, is such a sweetie at time. though the camera i bought is none from the list that i've came out with.. i'm satisfied already. can't wait to start snapping!

next, we went OG. our intention is to get ashley really nice clothes but guess, typical mum and daughter, we ended up shopping alot for myself and for herself too. mum bought me two new jackets. gosh, my cupboard is full of jackets. think ar, i monday to friday change one jacket also no poblem ar. she insist that by the time i go perth, it wld be autum.. rather cold. she wants to me get woollen type one lor.. luckily, i stopped her in time. i know i should trust her when ut comes to country's climate but i really really have my doubts! bought a sling bag as well. intending to bring along to perth with me... saw a fila bag very nice as well.. but.. never mind... my sling bag more useful, can put more things.

next, we went to shop for tibits... we buy like it's free. mummy has this craze for chocolates, especially meji ones. buy alot.. and i bough meji jellibeans!! yummy... am going to give cousin tmr.. =) anyway, ended up buying lotsa chocolates and candies. my fridge is stocked up for my night studies le.

mum's colleague just gave birth and she bought a BIG hamper with almost every baby stuff in it.. cost like 64 bucks.. and we bought ashley a halter dress.. much nicer than tt big cow buy de. mum bought a pants for me as well.. those type for sleeping purposes.. now i can sleep prettily.. cousin sae i crazy.. at night only she see me in the hotel.. but i don't care.. must sleep prettily!! =)

and dal dal, i finally bought a belt.. u are the only person i want to tell.. like finally right. and i bought sunglasses as well.. lalala~ wanted to buy watch de.. but mumm saes too ex... which is true.. close to 200... what to do.. guess de. oh, lastly, bought a pair of shoes. so i wun have to wear my ugly sports shoe and wun give xm a chance to laugh at me!

going out with cousin tmr.. can test out camera. eating cheap dinner and watching movie.. am very tired.. but i bet i wld smile in my dreams!! need to study tmr before i go out.. sians... but never mind.. work hard.. and then perth, here i come!

28 more days to perth
54 more day to xm going korea

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i want to go bintan! why must we have itab on wednesday at 10 in the morning somemore!? *pouts* i want go bintan! even mummy agreed! hmph...

stayed at home the whole day. it always feel very good to sleep early and wake up not too early, not too late the next day. felt so refreshed. read like 5 comic books. productive yea? did abit of mob but didn't dare cram too much things into this already very big head of mine so i took it easy. =) wanted to start on econs but... hmmm... the sight of the notes made me take 2 steps back already. maybe would start econs another day when i have more courage, braver or when i have someone to guide me along.

mum's on leave tmr. everytime she's on leave, it would be a "0ff" day for me and dad as well. dad has to fetch her around.. and me, am obliged to accompany her. so that means it would be a waste day for me. don't think can get to study, so i think better do some work before i sleep tonight. but me and mum going sim lim tmr. for my beloved camera. =) but mummy sae our family on tight budget this month, so have to wait for next month, see see first but no worries what.. april coming soon. that means my allowance coming soon too. so broke now, can.

daddy is a silly big cow! he actually bought clothes for ashley, my darling. and the clothes he bought are... hmmm.. out of fashion already! i laughed, mum laughed as well. looks like we're not only going sim lim tmr.. might go shop for ashley's clothes as well.. silly big cow of mine.. but nonetheless, one of my favs! =)

everyone living in this world must have a faith. something that they believe in. it's only with this faith that human can pull through one obstacle after another. this faith of ours can bring us up to greater heights and see greener pastures. it's because of this faith that we remain strong in our position and situation, fighting and striving for what we believe in. it's also because of this faith that we dry our tears and smile in any difficult circumstances, awaiting for dawn-- the light behind every darkness to arrive. faith is a strong tool and all of us should use it well.

let me continue my countdown:
29 more days to perth!
55 more days to xm going korea.

have been oversleeping for 2 consecutive days already. has my head got accustomed to the annoying ringing of the alarm clock or am i just plain tired. haven't been feeling alert and fresh to start the day with. stoning and drifting... totally lack of focus and concentration. it's time my dear old friend discipline comes into the picture.

31 more days to perth!
57 more days to xm going korea.

xuanming say he will check this so i better blog this:

32 more days to going perth!
58 more days to xuanming going korea!

I'm tired, really really tired. since saturday, i've caught only 10 hours of sleep. that's not enough... it's insufficiently not enough! and i've still got incompleted tasks to do.

brought ashley out for a while today. she's the cutest little baby on earth and my highlight of the day. walked around the neighbourhood with her, occasionally stopping to carry her, feed her and letting her run on her own. i was wondering if passer-bys would think she's my daughter. after all, my mummy claims she looks a little like me when i was her age. =) she's soo cute! once i get my digital camera, i'm going to take a picture of her, upload it, put it in my blog and prove it that she's soo soo adorable.

anyway, i'm finally going to perth. we booked the air tickets already! =) can't wait can't wait... i'm gg perth. xuanming going to korea and eve's so jealous.. lolx... she's so gonna kill me if she sees this... but tt's the point! *evil laughters*

gotta freshen up and go do my tasks at hand le... m freaking tired...

33 more days to perth!

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You are the most in touch with knowledge. It's the tree of life from which you tap the sap. You know what you want and you know how to reasonably get it.

Virtues: You respect people with plans. When someone has their head on their shoulders, you know that they can see straightforward and keep their eyes on the mark. When it comes to looking at the future, you take a logical approach: what's within your ability? A fortunate attribute that you have is the ability to set a goal for yourself, higher than maybe you feel possible, but still keep yourself within reasonable bounds. You take the time to appreciate those surrounding you and they do appreciate you in return. Decision-making comes naturally to you when you take the time to consider each option. People only come to talk to you when they are looking for a logical, reasonable solution.

Aspirations: You have an idea of what you can do with your life, but you push it up a notch. You need a profession that you can enjoy, so work towards it. You want to live near your friends and family while being as far away as possible. You also want to settle down while working in excitement and variation.

Quirks: You don't appreciate drama queens and they don't appreciate you. When they need help, they won't seek you out because of your ability to see through their overly dramatic predicaments. You have leeway for humor, and sometimes love to participate in it, but when it becomes irrational behavior, others can count you out. Loud noises are bothersome, except when they come from you or your friends.

Factors: Reach for the sky! Don't decide to do something because you're merely good at it, but choose something you might like to do, despite whether you're sure you can master it or not. Don't only save room for a few empathetic friends, but open up to everyone.

Future: When looking for a job, if you work in all of your talents (logic, decision-making, planning, and definitely humor), you'll find yourself happy. Come to a compromise for location; live nearby your friends and take periodic vacations or live farther away and take frequent return trips.

First of all, thanks so much for those who showed me care and concern wll this while. I really appreciate it and don't worry, i would be fine. =) guess it has occurred to me that sometimes, i shouldn't suppress too much. when it's still there, no point denying its presence. it would only make me feel much worse. i want to get out of it so i've decided to face it head on. maybe by doing so, views, concepts and priciples would change but this is inevitable.

it's going to be a semi-busy weekend. got to study a bit before i go out tmr night. gonna catch a movie, chill out and simply relax and catch up with cousin. we are going to the natas fair this coming sunday. hopefully can finalise plans already. i want to get at least somethings accomplised and done.

mummy is right. i need to work during the hols. cash is needed badly. but would anyone want to hire me? sians... i can't work one-full month.. would anyone want me?

it's the c***. it's the h***. it's the f***. nothing is going right.

when did all of these start, i am wondering. guess it's sometime ago when all the bad luck start befalling me. so many knots. i wonder when and how to get them untangled. i wonder who controls the amount of time one person is limited to, whoever it is out there, give me more of it please.

too many things to handle, both inside and outside, emotionally and physically. tummy is not helping, no one is helping. everyone only knows how to make it worse for me.

i'm slowly on my way to self-destruction.

"white cream on top of a cake taste sweet and nice at first and subsequently the next few bites. however, alot of it makes one sick and turned off."

My day didn't start well which explains my not so fantastic mood now. But i will survive. Since when haven't I? This is probably due to fighting out there alone, I've got to strive in order to stay in this world, isn't it? Presentations in the morning and then all lectures. As usual, didn't pay much attention. Project discussion after that. Nothing much left to be done. Had a major headache on my way home.

It's time to focus. And this means making several decisions about what I should do and what I need to do in the future. I don't want to be weak anymore. Am going to start studying, which i hope i really have the determination to do so and the self-discipline. Nothing else comes first than studies. Whatever it is, it gonna have to wait or probably ignored. To my darling amelia, if u are ever reading this. Strive on, fight on! guess we are in the slightly same situation now. Practise self-discipline and clear ur head of all other thoughts. Let's motivate each other. You know I am always by your side. so let's work hard together, k. Let's not be people whol gives up easily. It's always easier to know that someone is striving on with u..

To the anonymous out there, you don't know what kind of girl I am. i dun want anyone to protect me cos i deserve whatever that's going to befall me. who's going to take care of those i made to suffer? protection are for weak people and i dun want to reply on it anymore, people always fail me in one way or another. i know u meant no harm. thanks anyway.

am going to be in my shell for the next few days? weeks? just let me go by every single day with no disruption to the peace. just let me be...

"I love you, that's why I don't want to lie to you."

another very typical monday. went to school for idea but was told that the class was cancelled. what the... went finance department to get my card done. the depressing part was i received an email from this girl and that she picked up my card! there goes my $10.50. should have really listened to eve and waited.. i was too rash. just wanna get things done. have been really unlucky these days.

after school, rushed down town to catch closer with eve. not too bad a show. yan was right. certain parts in the show strike certain chords within me. brought back memories that should be hidden way beneath. made me think back once again. the reason. or was there even a reason in the first place... i shouldn't be thinking about it at all.

I'm slightly sleepy. but still got things to do. =(

i know i will get retribution for sure. there will be a day when i have to pay it all back. what i suffered out there, i shouldn't have brought it home. the environment out there has somehow shapen what I am now but this doesn't mean people at home deserve it. I am sorry but I have my pride. One fine day when all of these is over, I will regret. I know for sure. Everyone thinks I'm doted and pampered. This I won't deny but the things I really want are those that i can never have. Whatever it is, i await my retribution.

You are the Spirit of Hope. Whenever someone is
feeling down, they merely have to think of you
to make them happy again. You have the ability
to simply radiate happiness. You can make
friends quickly because your strong point is
your amazingly friendly nature which naturally
people want to be with. You think about the
best in everything, a total optimist, you won't
have any trouble getting a worthy person to
shae your life with!

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came back at 5 in the morning. took a cab back. high expense mans. catched hitch last night.. it is hilarious. just that there was disturbance throughout the show.. the guy behind me can't seem to keep his leg still and to himself.. keep kicking the chair.. i was pissed.. turned back a few times but he didn't seem to catch the hint. after the show, i just turned back and diao him den faster walk away.. in case he wanna bash me mah. hee.

usual night out. coffee club... ordered wrongly drink.. ended up drinking something milky.. yuck.. talked to cousin.. discussed abt our perth trip... ahahah, can't wait. before meeting cousin, went eat dinner with eve.. she ar, late queen ar.. everytime go out with her, she wun fail to be late de lor. anyway, did lotsa walking with her.. circled round newton.. and then i got her to take cab in town as she wanted to get home asap.. in the end, had to call cab.. cos it's soo diff to get a cab there at tt timing.. must after midnight ar.. cabs everywhere.. fighting for passengers mans. lolx...

didn't get to sleep alot. had to go temple and then go celebrate papa's bdae... ate goood foood. =) papa wants to make ashley his god daughter.. i've got no opinions... cos ashley is soo adorable.. waiting for gugu to agree now.. =) now, i'll have a god sis 16 years younger than me mans.. and the love i get would be halfed.. awww...

came home did idea immediately... got lotsa things to pack. but i'm feeling lazy...

listening to tong hua now. this song is so nice can. i'm in love with it!

woke up this morning and start doing my idea project, now waiting for dal's part and it would be done. i think maybe i should further edit it because it's simply too many pages. i'll do it tmr because i'm going out soon. meeting eve for dinner and catching a movie with cousin in the night. this is my ideal saturday night. i loves. =)

there's a boundary where i do not dare to step over. i don't have the confidence that i will do it well. i don't have the courage to cross over. and most importantly, i'm not sure if i would have the strength to recover if i fail.

this song is so nice. i think i'm melting. =) need to go bathe le.. tata.

The one passion that deeply burns in your soul is
to be kind! You're the softy, and sweet one out
of your group. You love to lend a helping hand
whenever you can, and enjoy the company of
others. Your lover can see how special and
fragile you are, and they treat you so
divinely, afraid that they might break your
innocent soul! You lover loves to spend
whatever time they have with you; whether it be
receiving a passionate kiss, or sitting down
and having an intelligent conversation...
They're just happy to have you by their side!
However, with this pure, innocent soul of yours
comes a price... People always seem to try and
take advantage over you, and you always end up
being hurt in the end. Learn to say no once in
awhile! You don't always have to be nice! But I
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Keep your friends close, but your enemies
closer! Keeping smiling your way through life
and spread the kindness :)

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woah... can finally sit down and rest le. today is a rather hectic day. so hectic that i dun even have the time to sit down for a proper lunch. in the morning, went to school early for itab. took itab quiz. errr, what can i say leh.. didn't study, not as lucky so obviously i failed. hee.. whatever lah, it's just 5%.

after itab, grabbed a light lunch, went for mob lecture. fell asleep halfway through, simply cannot take it anymore. after lecture at one, supposed to have project meeting but due to some circumstances, we can only start at 2. so i was left alone in sp to rot. wanted to go use the com in the lib and i realised that my student admin card is gone! freak it lor... went to student's alumni.. they directed me to admission's office.. all the way at foodcourt two.. walked under the hot hot sun only to realise that the admission's office is close for lunch.. >( walked back to foodcourt 6 to rot alone. =(

did project for like 2 hours plus plus. too late to go home but abit early to go meet chin so i decided to go back to the admission's office and really to my horror! not only do i have to pay for it, i have to make a police report... what the.... damn suay lor... i seriously dunno where i misplaced it! so i went all the way to outram to make a police report... with chin as company.. and by the time we rush to yio chu kang to meet angel, we are running slightly late le. when we reached nyjc.. can go in and sit le.

nice play... really. much better than last year one. realised when you watch the play with correct company, it's a very good feeling. =) xiuwen was the story writer for one of the play.. ahahha.. tt play is so her. we knew it's her story. it's just like something she would think and write. anyway, i miss my nu peng you alot! hopefully can catch up with her soon. great effort!! jia you!!! =)

and now, i am back home.. complaining to mum about my admin card... and gobbling down food.. lol... soo hungry.. ate the whole packet of food in 15 minutes i think.. ahahha.. feeling much better compared to yesterday.. =) tmr would be a great day too!

today is a very bad day. I'm exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally. heard something today, it kinda affected me a little. it made me ponder and wonder. sometimes i just wish there's a second chance around.. but no such luck. i guess somethings just slip by without u knowing and there's simply nothing you can do about it when u realise it too late. but i would be fine. i am going to be ok. nothing daunts me anymore, cos i am stronger than before.

changed back my blogskin.. dun really like the previous one.. soo many stars floating around.. irritate the hell out of me espeically when i am in such a bad mood today. mum made it worse tonight.. shall not even talk about it... am so pissed.... sorry to those i might have offended in one way or another today. bear with me...

whatever.... =(

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You love to kick back and hang out with your
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love the wildlife and you can always seem to
make the day better. Your lover is the luckiest
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You can't help but sigh when you see to people
kiss in the park and all. You don't like to go
over board and believe in a small steady
relationship at first so that it can grow. You
also like to think that you can have that kiss
that puts you into a portal and you can't get
back until he/she stops.

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You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're
confident, independent, outgoing, and love
attention. You might become a star one day. All
the girls like to follow in your foot steps
because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't
care about anything. You make the rules, never
follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy.
That could be bad. But keep the attitude.
That's what makes you, you.

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goddess! Always the leader in your group of
friends you are the one to go to in a crisis,
your advice is valuable if you give it out,
which is only if you feel people deserve it. Go
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it's been so long since i last shopped and today is finally my long-awaited shopping day! had a really unlucky incident in school today. don't know when i deleted my ACCPAC file and today when everyone happily started on their assignment, i was redoing the whole of lab 1 to lab 7. though it took only an hour, but by the time i finished, everyone finished with their assignment as well. oh well... =(


after my gems today, went to meet chin fang. very long never see that girl liao and since it's her holidays.. decided to take this opportunity. she was late, as usual. someone actually came up to me and say her colleague spotted me and ask if i want to do modelling or not... ahahhaa.. i was laughing out loud inside lor.. me? anyway, i was in a rush to the toilet so i was said no.... thank you.


after i met chin fang, went m'phosis immediately. i've been aiming for this top for a long long time but the one in town don't have!! very sad... chinfang suggested to go to the branch at city hall, i agreed but decided to make a trip to heerens before going to city hall. went heerens to look for a skirt and as i was fiddling around with this particular skirt.. looking for price tag, i dunno is it i used to much strength or what, i actually broke the hanger into two! i was soo embarrassed can, i quickly went to try the skirt, it fitted.. and i didn't even think twice, i just bought it... apologising profusely to the lady.. she was a sweet lady.. she sae it's ok.


went to city hall after that and i found that beloved top!! ahahha, was very happy.. and i bought it for only 20 bucks!! dirt cheap can.... so happy i went crystal jade to eat my la mian again.. ahahhaha... very nice and fulfilling day, no wonder they say retail theraphy works... it really clear my mind of all those frustrating and irritating thoughts i have. anyway, amelia chow!! wanna go aj choir!! get back to me asap.. angel.. friday how!! get back to me!!!

i've always feel that somewhere, somehow, i'm deprived of something in the heart and today, this realisation suddely hit me. i've found what i have been missing for all this while and with this new found feeling or bond, I'm sure life would be much easier to deal with. However, too much of it can put me off too. i've got to beware.

got back my stats paper today. wasn't really satisfied with what i've got but oh wells, i still got the final 40% to pia for. if one result is gonna get me down, i don't know how many times i've experienced the feeling of down le. and this is to my beloved dal: thanks for your concern today, I really appreciated it.. though it was a little misinterpreted... nonetheless, ur concern has touched my heart in one way or another. thank you. *hugs*

my tummy has been aching on and off today. probably due to indigestion. *pains* can't really eat much.. no appetite. went to have dinner with my parents just now and bought lotsa stuff.. hee.. my papa gave me the inspiration to buy toto this coming thurs.... did some of my theory le... gotta do some work tonight so i'll have a easier week ahead.. accomplishing goals now is to ensure a smoother journey ahead.

here's to those who collected their o levels results, if you did well, congratulations! your efforts have paid off and those who did not do as well, don't despair, or give up. life doesn't just end here. an o level cert doesn't mark your success or failure. in fact, it's only the beginning. work hard for ur future as now is then the key to ur future.

hey people, i've changed my blogskin! do give your most sincere comments. thank you very much.

I'm hooked on to "MAR"-- the magical, fighting world, where power and strength is the key to survival. guess it reminds me alot of "Flame Of Recca", am impressed by the author. his pictures and story line moved systematically, with power and love both involved. bonding of friends and saving the weak, standing up for what is right and fighting the evil. and so, this is where i spent my weekend at. =)

Out of nowhere, recurring memories flood my mind, with one particular dream bugging me. had another dream last week, equally mind-bugging. why is it still bothering me, i would like to know. does this mean i would lose my stand once i get to see the one again? i thought i have the confidence to get it out of me, but maybe i'm wrong. it doesn't mean i'm weak again, just that somehow, i would never be the same as before. like a broken jade, it would never have the same flawless shine as before. somewhere throughout this journey, i've changed. no one knows whether it is for the worse or for the better. even the owner of this heart doesn't know. life's still going on, heart's still beating on. but the scars that were left will always remain as it's for.

can't wait for the 1st to come, am so deprived of money. it's a very unfruitful weekend, but how many times do i get to enjoy unfruitful weekends. so let me just enjoy in this guilt-ridden weekend, knowing i still got many tasks at hand. because, right now, i really don't care. just let me be this wilful, unreasonable girl, i know deep down, i always will be, no matter on what degree.

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the days at the end of month are always the hardest to bear with. and it's always the time when most people would ask me out, i wonder why. hmmm.. but leona decided to be a good girl and stay at home until 1st march. must bear with it, must bear with it. so if u really want to see me or meet me, please travel to tampines. lolx.

another long long day. woke up at 6. wanted to study last night but my bed was too tempting so i ended up sleeping instead. went to schoold for frontpage presentation. wasn't really well done but it was the best we could do given with our work. sians. after itab, skipped mob and went straight to buona vista. went back to the kindergarten to collect out pictures taken with dr. vivian. glad that the teachers remembered us.. and there's fu miao... eve's fav kid who decided to shave cut botak. ahahha.

after that, we went to the macs over there and spent our whole afternoon there. supposed to be studying econs full time after lunch, but we were talking half the time. we bought happy meal and ended up both of us were playing with the toys... tt silly violent monkey. i love. so with like only very limited information stored in my head, we went back to school for the test. how's the test.. i dun wanna talk about it.

finally a little freedom after quite some time. time to do some detox-ing work. am gonna enjoy this beautiful weekend, no work, just play.. ya.. at home.. myself... monopoly anyone?? lolx... =)

hmmm, have been receiving comments about me blogging very little. so here i am, on a wednesday afternoon. talked to dal last night till 4 plus in the morning then i realised that i got to sleep to wake up at 6:45. dal practically shoo me off to sleep. this morning, woke up only by xm's call and realised it's 8! i am supposed to meet him at 7:45 for him to carry my blender for me. i was like shit! and then cabbed to school.. soo expensive.. i owe my mum money... =(

didn't finish accounts tutorial, was in a very lazy mood last night. somethings happened, made me lose my motivation but what the hell, it's never too late. i am soo lost in accounts liao... and that silly "shifu" of mine ar, like dun care about me liao, got to find someone else to teach me... any volunteers or accountants wanna be want to point me in the right direction for accounts? am so lost. anyway, got back accounts test, didn't do well but oh well, at least i didn't fail. was really thinking i would fail lor. so i am contented as of now.

hr presentation. woah, we carried so much ingredients there. think we can score in the effort section right. somethings went wrong, forgot this, forgot that... guess we were nervous in one way or another.. but i am so glad it's over. really glad!

many things aren't going my way and in order to keep them in track, i've got to put aside other things which are slightly less significant. econs haven't touch yet. no motivation, no mood. mob project... *dots dots dots* lazy to say also. to eve: guess you're really having pms these days. thought of many irrelevant reasons to your behaviours. shouldn't even doubt my beliefs about what i know about you in the first place. though i might not know u very well yet but at least, shouldn't have think too far. soo silly of me. haha~ take care, k. the sun would be out even before you realised it.

anyone want to earn some extra cash. here is the deal. come my house help me wrap comics. go by number of books. one book 50 cents. i made a rough estimation. i've got about 200 over books.. which is 100 bucks.

got to go get ready and get my ass to the airport. jie flying off today.. i'll miss her... but i'll see her soon... tata~ freaking hot weather.

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leona is a very happy girl today. the day started very early in the morning at 9. went to aj's funfair because amelia asked me to go with her. agreed and gave angel a surprise there, am very glad to see her.. it was nice doing a little catching up... am even happier to see her surprised face, am missing her already but i know i would see her soon when i go for my gf's drama.. love all my darlings to bits! *smiles*

after aj, amelia and i went to town cos i said i would give her a treat.. our long awaited crystal jade to celebrate our 10th year anniversary.. hee... la mian and xiao long bao... yummy~ eat until tummy almost burst! next time, we order one la mian to share, k... and we must dine in nice places more often... it's a girl thing. *double smiles*

gotta rush back before evening as both amelia and i have activities on in the evening.. tt sweetie of mine gave me her ballon cos mine burst at aj itself.. thanks.. muaks! came home and saw that mum got me a ring from citigems... tt's very sweet of her. thought she would get me some 20 plus bucks ring.. but noope, she got me a white gold ring... though i keep complaining can't see the 0.05 diamond... i still love my mum... thanks mummy, leona loves you. * triple smiles*

family dinner near tiong bahru... nice place, food wasn't too bad... though quite boring there cos it's all the little kids who were playing and running about. reminds me of last time, me and my cousin at restaurant, create silly games to entertain ourselves... long story mans. ate kinder surprise, my all time fav. chocolate... jie bought it specially for me... she's going back to perth this wednesday.. i'll miss her! but not to worry, would see her soon in april when i go to perth. everything was yummy... leona's tummy is getting bigger... hee... this won't do. contented night though.

tmr's gonna be working day. typing of report, studying of stats etc. would not slack. don't have the time to anyway. it has been a busy and tiring week but i have been rewarded with the sweetest saturday... thanks to everyone who made my day in one way or another... *many many smiles*

my style magazine is waiting for me on the bed.. hee

it's only the third day of school and already i am deprived of sleep. went to school early today to discuss mob project. finished school at 3 today but stayed back till 5 to do my frontpage project. friday's the deadline and we're only half done. the moment i got home, i slept straight away until now. i figure it's going to be a long night ahead and i would need all the energy. don't like it when i am deprived of sleep, i would be rather short-tempered. and i am now seriously craving for chocolate.. any kind to help keep me going.

feel that i've grown fatter these day. the mirror told me so. skippied dinner. it's always the problem of discipline. if i'm disciplined enough, i would be able to go on a diet smoothly, save money and do my work.

there are people playing sparklers downstairs.... i can hear. when is it that i can allow some enjoyment to myself without feeling guilt. missed those days when everything goes so smoothly but like the saying goes, there's always ups and downs. am feeling pretty low, which is why i need the chocolate.. high intake of sugar. =(

realised that at times, i can be really harsh and hard-hearted towards things. i'm not the least bit compassionate at those times. don't know when did i become like that. i don't feel as passionate as i do abt things and people as i do in the past. something in me has changed. hopefully, with this change, it would lead me to greater heights but that also mean my circle of people would slowly decrease by then. oh well, nothing lose, nothing gained.

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone! had a rather good day today and thanks to those who contributed in one way or another to this beautiful day i had. thought i won't receive a flower but my sweetest darling, yan actually went clementi between school time to get a flower for me, that's like super sweet of her! love her to bits. she got me a lovely white rose with lavender at the side... very nice.. thanks yan! you've made my day. had dinner with her at pre rouge, our "lao di fang". the food there quite sucky.. yan and i decided we would only go there to drink after the sun sets. yan drank a little but i didn't, couldn't decide what to drink so might as well don't risk. realised that the last few times we went there, our moods were pretty down but it's different this time, we were actually celebrating... =) had a great time, thanks yan again.... i promise we would venture further at the end of this year.. =) gosh.... it's a beautiful v'dae... even without anyone by my side, i manage to spend it well. mum promise me a ring. doubles smiles...

you represent the dreams in life. you are laid back
and also dream alot.

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first of all, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! GONG XI FA CAI TO ONE AND ALL. leona is a very happy girl today and this marks a good beginning to this year. *smiles*

Didn't sleep very late last night, dunno why whole family soo tired so we all went to sleep slightly after 2. didn't remember sleeping so early last year. I tried to stay awake in my room, watching this chinese new year movie which mediacorp never fail to show EVERY new year night. it's the same one, i swear, but my eyes simply cannot open anymore so off i go to dreamland.

woke up this morning after 11. it was a good sleep, i would say. watched tv, do nothing.. lolx... the whole family left the house only after 2. daddy say mummy drag our time.. took soo long which i totally agree.. mummy sae we both against her... whatever lah. lolx. went to my grandma's house at sengkang first. ate, talked abit... took ang baos then left to head towards my grandmother at aljunied. ate more there. talked. then cousins came and then we sat down to play mahjong... =) i won.. lalala~ yay.... 3 house lose to me leh... but it's pure luck lah.. is not i good... is just luck... hee hee.

tmr, we are going out again. is the first time my family go out on second day of new year. we 're gonna go temple, den go do some visiting.. then maybe more mahjong.. gosh, i am addicted.. new year is not very fantastic but it's definitely a season to enjoy and relax and gamble~ lalala~ i am a happy happy girl!

just woke up not too long from my sleep. could have slept longer if not for my very irritating mother. she herself wake up liao also must make sure the rest of the household wakes up with her. what kind of a rubbish rule is this.. oh wells... luckily, she've left the house to go run some errands and therefore, peace at home! =)
came back slightly before 12 last night. wanted to go amelia's house play "building blocks" one.. but that silly mother of mine don't allow. anyway, she found out about my pierced ear and can't seem to stop talking about it. she didn't scold lah.. but keep bringing it up and tt's enough to annoy me.
bought clothes yesterday... oops... dun remind me about my savings plan. bought a skirt and a top. when i came back and tired on the skirt, i asked my dad if it was nice, he said it was too short. i told him i have shorter skirt and he just shook his head.. soo cute.. silly papa. =)
it was a great day yesterday, though very tiring.. but it was simply great. towned with the two chia sisters. went to eat sushi, courtesy from the younger chia sister. she owe us this meal a very long time already. and then shop, shop, shop. we shopped for like around 5 hours plus? and my feet hurts like hell already. walked from sommerset to orchard and then back to sommerset for a drink at tcc. brought jie there to eat the simply irresistable lava chocolate cake.. yummy~ am a happy girl~
anyway, my perth trip with my cousin is more or less confirmed. arrangements were made over at perth. and all relatives over our side knows. the only issue left is $$. ahaha~ can't wait.. am sure i would have a fun time there!!

2 of my all time-favourite girls and me at tcc

Mysterious, elegant, creative and calmYou are a sprite of the Water. Creative and one of
the most beautiful of sprites, you strike
wonder and curiosity into the hearts and minds
of all. Even though you are capable of
attraction and seduction you are way above all
that, you understand the true meaning of life
and are very open and understanding of life's
mysteries, most likely you are one of them. You
are respectful of all ways of life and do not
judge one due to their position or station in
life. You are gifted in the ways of
understanding and given the chance are usually
full of good, wise advice but your not the type
to take the stand and express such things. Your
laid back nature can be troubling, you don't
take many risks and prefer to keep things as
they are. You are one of the most unique of
sprites.

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my all-time favourite dessert at tcc 

just came back from the mall with mummy~ bought cosmetics (hee..) and a bag.. muacks mummy.. next time when i earn big bucks, i will buy u skincare products and cosmetics to make u pretty pretty too~ haha
yesteday was a rather bad day for me... die lah, amelia, does it mean that it's gonna be bad days for the whole of 2005 for me? had accounts paper yesterday, badly done but i won't dwell on it, no point. just can't help feeling a little disappointed with myself. feel so un-motivated these days. hopefully after new year, everything would be just fine, i know it will because i won't let myself fall. i won't lose to myself. meanwhile, it's simply enjoy all the way!
after the accounts tragedy, went to feast with my darlings, yan and cf. love you girls! with yan around, we can never have cheap dinner but it's perfectly fine with me. i have been craving for good food for the past week as i have been living on 3 bucks per day.. anyway.. to dal: i didn't spend alot yesterday.. besides food, didn't even buy any clothes! hahaha~ way to go for my savings. anyway, wanted to go for a drink with yan at our "lao di fang" but my tummy wasn't feeling very well.. sorry girl, another day, k... i am craving for a drinking session with you too.
the weather is so freaking hot.. irritates the hell out of me... sentosa, anyone? time for some serious sun-tanning!
v-day coming.... anyone want to date me... hahaha~ got to go... help my mum pack some stuff.. don't say i never help my mum do housework, k~ i do!

went to school for 3 hours today, wouldn't have gone at all if i didn't do my econs tutorial but i've been a good girl and i did my work so went to school. it's so boring in school today and to make matters worse, those two darling pals of mine decided they want to forsake me yet again. so pathetic me sat in the front row during tutorial all by myself, soo cold~
came home, rested, cooked and rested somemore. fell asleep and only woke up after receiving a message. luckily he msged, or esle i would be sleeping until evening time and i won't revise my accounts at all. while revising accounts, i've been popping pineapple tarts into my mouth one by one... before i knew it, 3/4 of the whole container worth of pineapple tarts are gone. so sorry, mum... think she hafta buy another container but those tarts were simply very very yummy.. tmr's accounts.. am a little worried... somehow or another, just felt that i am not prepared enough... oh.. but what the hell, got to sleep early tonight anyway...

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In your eyes, people see shards of ice
everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing
away people that love you and truely care for
you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
cold, you can be very protective over something
you truely believe in or love. Let go of that
"tough" rep and just be you! It's
impossible to live life without some fun and
love ^-^

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in life, there are many things that can actually make us happy.
first on the list, we have kinship.
next, we have friendship.
followed by the sense of achivement we get in completing challenging tasks at hand
and then the joy of helping others
and the list goes on...
surprisingly, love is not in top ten...
this proves something yea...

i like the bustling and hustling in my house right now. though we have only 3 people, i still like whatever minimum atmosphere of preparing for new year at my house. at least with some commotion going on, i won't feel so spaced out. seeing my mum rushing everywhere to get ready for new year, packing everything at home and dad being very naughty, teasing my mum and cracking jokes here and there, i feel slightly better than when i am outside facing other people. nothing's the problem. i just feel very lethargic, can't seem to focus or concentrate on anything. it's not due to fatigue, that i am very sure. then what is it. i really have no idea. the emptiness that i once felt is coming back to me. friends are all busy, leaving me to ponder what have i been doing instead of spending time to complete tasks at hand. sometimes in the day, i find it so hard to focus. gasping for breath. i am trying really hard, i hope things would only be temporary but i suddenly want to live a life isolated, no one can see me and vice versa. like i've learnt before, no one can help me but myself and I am not who i used to be so i'll definitely pull through and get some things accomplished. stop looking down on me if you have been because i am going to prove you so wrong that you would regret even thinking like that about me. i am not a weakling so stay out of my life if you just want to despise me!

You are a flute. You are social and like to take
your chances. You like to spread your wings and
expirience new things. You are high in spirit.
You also like to talk to many people about your
views.

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as i see my determination being slowly scraped away, i see what's revealing behind all this determination and i don't like the sight of it. time to re-compose and get my determination to cover me up strongly once again. i'm not letting any emotions resurface... nope, i am not going to make that kind of mistake again. life's not great. i feel fat... feelings of guilt and of bursting out have made me indulged in food greatly and this would not do. time to put a stop to this mess.. get a broom and sweep it all out. only after that, i would be fine.

shopping with my mum is worse than 2.4. I am so drop dead tired. we did mega shopping and i mean really tired. my eyes are so dry, my feet hurts like hell and my back is about to break any second. gosh~ i can't do this very often with my mum. it will kill me or shorten my life span. my dad is so cute today. he got fascinated by the lucky draw held at the mall, like some auntie character. but no wonder he got the time to get fascinated. my mum and i stayed inside this shop, looking for clothes to close to an hour and all the time, he just stood outside, at the same spot, waiting for us. there was performance at the mall. my mum and i stayed in there when the performance start until it ended and my poor dad just waited.. no complains u noe.. =) muaks, daddy! i love ya. saw this sk ring that i like... hmmm, asked mum to get it for me but she didn't agree.. neither did she disagree... hopefully, i can get it.. bought all my new year clothes and accessories today.. done... last thing i need is a bag and i m 100% done! yay~ my mum ar, going for younger and ypunger fashion.. to think she got the same pair of jeans as me, only diff size.... one bad thing about shopping with her... ahahha~ gonna go some serious packing of my room. but not tonight.. am seriously half dead. hee...
things happened. i hear stories from different people. different people, different side and opinion. i don't want to take sides with anyone. why should i choose who to believe, no one is more trustworthy than myself. i am damn sick and tired of all of these nonsense. i shouldn't side track. things i hear would only remain with me, what's the point. people might not believe me anyway...

am having alot of cravings at the moment:
salmon
steamboat
mahjong
food at newton
la mian from crystal jade
coffee club's potato wedges and my all-time fav. salsa sauce
i want i want....

we learn new things everyday. some of which we are aware of while we just take in other things unknowingly. one can learn just simply watching a tv programme. cooked lunch for myself today. it feels good to be independent this way. i don't need anyone to look after me. i can look after myself. instead of waiting for people all the time, depending on them, i rather take care of myself, i m not that dependent on others anymore and i'm glad for the change. I am through waiting. spent a simple day just slacking away and it feels good. slept in late due to last night's mahjong session. watched tv the whole day and just think of nothing but enjoy the peace i have. I am no longer afraid of staying at home alone... on the other hand, I am enjoying every moment of it summore. need to start getting ready because I am going out. to my friends out there that I haven't seen for ages.. i miss u guys alot!! u guys are always on my mind and hope everything's going out fine for u all... in any times that u need me, i would always be here... =) take care~

eating home-cooked food, drinking soup that i've been missing for ages. watching grandma shouting at my little cousins, drinking in the whole scene... my whole mind is only filled with one thought. even if i can't be in heaven, I am sure this is close enough. the warmth i felt and all the familiar things and people around me. =) only when i am there, then nothing else matters at all. no homework, no worries. nothing... just pure joy and contentment. realised grandma getting older... but still love her alot. =) escaped from class halfway through today and headed down to grandma's place. had my hair cut too. it's been such a long time since i ate home-cooked food. always only get to smell it from my neighbour's house but finally get to eat it and my darling ashley is getting cuter and cuter as the days go by. she knows how to call me!! sooo cute! stayed there till evening and then headed home.. till now, still haven't bathe and haven't do my econs yet... =( mum's back... gotta go bathe now and start a little mugging...

sipping away at tcc~ 

Ok, I am crazy. I came back at 6:30 in the morning and by right, I should still be fast asleep on my bed, so what am i doing online blogging and uploading pictures. Thanks to my beautiful and hardworking mother who came banging into my room and started measuring the size of my room, my cupboard and everything else she could lay her eyes on. and let me tell you, she's not the least bit quiet about doing it. so instead of trying so hard to get back to sleep, i decided to wake up. it's going to be another long shopping day for me and let me officially declare this. i am broke! =( sobz... come to think of it, it's quite hard not to be broke after so much things i bought this month and so much fine dining. but I am happy! and that's what matters right... actually, I might not stay happy for long when I am broke. wells, any kind soul out there wants to feed me and clothe me? ahaha,went to watch movie with cousin last night.. as usual, our late night movies... watched shall we dance.. was good! i love it! inspires me and i simply love it... lalala~ i postponed my cut hair session! yay~ everything is going well so far for the day excpet two facts. I am going to be dead tired in the middle of the day given that I've only slept for 4 hours and secondly, my mob test is tmr! ahahha~ we'll see how things go... go with the flow~

me and my cousin. one act cute, one act innocent. i love my cousin! and i love our late nights out!! -smiles-